I just met the-cute-straight-guy from the office this evening. It’s been a long time since I saw him. He’s not as friendly as usual. He just said, “Wah, ngobat ya?” when he saw me taking my alergic medication. I replied with a smile. Cutest smile I could give. That’s it. End of the story.

Yesterday I tried to make a move to be a little bit more friendly to him by saying, “Pulang dulu yah” when I was going back to my boarding house. And he replied, “Okay, hati-hati di jalan” and I almost flew through the ceiling hahaha. So this is how it feels to have someone you like responded to your saying. Ahh, he’s so cute.

But I always know that we can never be together. It hurts to like someone you can never have. You like his smile, you like his jokes, but in the end you have to let him be with a girl he deserves. A wise man once said: “If you love someone, let them go. Love is not about having but it’s about letting them be happy”.

But that’s a shitty word. Bullcrap.