New Year 2015

Happy new year 2015!
I no longer have any resolutions, revolutions, recognitions or anything to celebrate this new year. I’m too old for this shit.

Anyway, have a great day, great people! 😉


Between Random and Chaos

I’m a well planned guy. I always plan everything; from the very beginning of the day, until the end of the day. I always do the planning the night before I go to sleep. I love a well-planned schedule. You can call me orthodox, classic, whatever you name it, but this is me.

Some time I like random things between my well-planned schedule. Random silly things; like writing this post between my-hectic-new-year-eve-working-schedule, or going to a mall just to find some delicious pork. I like a planned-random-thing.
Confused? Don’t be.
You can always plan a random thing. And sometimes these random things are the things that make your day brighter and happier, yes?

I like doing random things.
But I hate chaos. I do hate chaos.

Chaos is different from random. You can always plan a random thing, but chaos? You can’t do anything about chaos. I don’t like it when people I don’t like out of nowhere joining to go to lunch with my group. I don’t like running at airport dragging my belongings to the plane because I was late, because my sister was having a nice cute breakfast with her boyfriend, which is not on my schedule list, because she said that she would only went to get some cash at ATM and turned out she was having a breakfast. That stupid random thing causes shitty chaos domino effect in my shcedule.

To put it simple, chaos is random things that other people plan and interfere my planned-and random schedule. While random things are random plan that I make for myself.

That’s why, I’d prefer to trust myself than to trust other people, because whenever I trust other people to plan something for me, chaos happens.

Never trust other, trust yourself

Christmas 2014

Merry Christmas great people!
If only Santa Claus were real, I must have got a present now. I’ve been a good boy all year long… 😀

Well, I actually want to have an iPhone 6 right now. But looking my circumstances right now, I guess I should wait for several months – or years – before I can afford one hahaha.

My iPhone 5’s screen is bent, I don’t know what causes it. We have already been together for 2 years. Maybe it’s too old? But actually this beaut is still good to go, the only problem is the bent screen.

I was looking some iDevice services on the internet, and the fee is quite pricey, starting from IDR 1.9mil to 2.5mil *deep sighing*

Haha. I know it’s not a good reason to buy another iPhone. Maybe I should try to find iDevice services from Kaskus?
Yeah, maybe I should…

Choosing Sides

I’ve never been a huge fan of bisexual guys. No matter how sexy he is; facial hair, hairy pits, nice natural body smell, or cute pointy nipples. Okay, I just mentioned my fetishes in an online blog. Hahaha. Never mind that.

Back to topic,
I always thought that we, humans, were created to make choices. We choose to become someone we want, we choose to be together with people we like, we choose to live our life the way we want, and also choosing partner; either male or female, but not both. And as I understand, the term “bisexual” means that someone are able to have sexual intercourse with both genders. And many homosexuals (gay guys for specific) these days are tend to choose to become bisexual rather than to be a homosexual or a heterosexual.

A simple question pops up in my mind: why?

And then this simple question branches to many whys: Why would you choose to love both genders? Why can’t you make up your mind to choose one gender to spend your entire life? Is your heart sooo big that you can love many people at the same time? Or is it the sex that makes you can’t make up your mind? Just why?

For me, I’ve met both type of gay guys. And the guys who hurt me the most are the bisexual type. “We have no future together. Men are suppose to be with women” is the most common reason I heard from these bi-guys. If YOU are SUPPOSED to be with a woman, why the fuck do you bother to know me? Had relationship with me? And suddenly left me for “the girl of your dream”? You (the bi-guys) are such a sick bastard.

Up until now, I never want to take any kind of relationship with bi-guys, especially if I saw/chat him from gay-finder-mobile-application. And by saying “any”, I literally mean ANY kind of relationship (acquaintance, friend, bestfriend, friend with benefits, you name it). The world already full of hypocrites, I don’t need another to be my friend. That’s why when someone says “hi” to me, I’ve always ask his sexual orientation first.

If you really want to be my friend, you’d better made up your mind; choose which sides you are on.

And yes, I had bad experiences with bi-guys. But no, I don’t take advices from anyone to “forgive” them.


I just met the-cute-straight-guy from the office this evening. It’s been a long time since I saw him. He’s not as friendly as usual. He just said, “Wah, ngobat ya?” when he saw me taking my alergic medication. I replied with a smile. Cutest smile I could give. That’s it. End of the story.

Yesterday I tried to make a move to be a little bit more friendly to him by saying, “Pulang dulu yah” when I was going back to my boarding house. And he replied, “Okay, hati-hati di jalan” and I almost flew through the ceiling hahaha. So this is how it feels to have someone you like responded to your saying. Ahh, he’s so cute.

But I always know that we can never be together. It hurts to like someone you can never have. You like his smile, you like his jokes, but in the end you have to let him be with a girl he deserves. A wise man once said: “If you love someone, let them go. Love is not about having but it’s about letting them be happy”.

But that’s a shitty word. Bullcrap.